Do I Have to Accept Porn?


Porn is a problem in many marriages. In an earlier post, I referred to several resources from an expert on the subject, Dr. Mark Laaser. The comments on that post are also worth reading. If porn is an issue in your marriage, I hope you will check it out.
A lot of women take offense at porn. It makes them question their husbands’ respect and love for them. It feels like infidelity to them. It makes it so much harder for them to respect their men.
A lot of men do not understand. They don’t think of porn as having anything to do with their relationship with their wives. It is just entertainment to them. It feeds their fantasies and may make them feel more sexual with their wives, not less. It may relieve their concerns about the effects of a vasectomy, a prostate problem, or aging. It may make it easier to remain faithful to a wife who wants less sex or tamer sex than they want. It may provide relief from some other tension in the marriage that they have no idea how to bring up or resolve. Or it may have become a compulsion, because porn is marketed in a way that leads a man from one type to the next until there is no way to get the same satisfaction from a healthy relationship with a real woman.
You don’t have to accept porn as part of your relationship. You don’t. Even if other women find it acceptable or normal or even exciting, your relationship is between the two of you. You are not required to tolerate it.
If you cannot tolerate it, and your husband is into it, here is my advice. Do not make your husband out to be a bad person for wanting this form of entertainment or for succumbing to this compulsion. Instead, recognize that this is basically a disagreement. Find a Third Alternative. Respect his needs and offer to make sure they are met, just not this way.
A Third Alternative is one that pleases both of you, so you must do the work of learning what makes porn attractive to your husband at this point in his life. If you really want to know (and there is no other way to get to your Third Alternative), you must ask your questions non-judgmentally. Your goal is to find a way for him to get whatever he gets from porn without turning you off or making you feel disrespected or unloved like porn does.
There is a good chance that will be a lot easier than you imagine. If it’s not, please find a therapist or clergy member who is comfortable talking about sex to help the two of you.
Keep in mind that “he stops looking at porn” meets only your half of the criteria for a Third Alternative. It also lacks the important half of any plan to kick a habit, the substitute for when the urge or opportunity comes up.
If you are not familiar with the steps to finding a Third Alternative, please check out my “How to find third alternatives” page. This is a powerful tool for every disagreement with the man who promised to love you for the rest of your life but doesn’t always know how to do it.

About the author

Patty Newbold

I am a widow who got it right the second time. I have been sharing here since February 14, 2006 what I learned from that experience and from positive psychology, marriage research, and my training as a marriage educator.


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  • Eighteen months ago, after 33 years of marriage, I discovered my husband had been viewing online porn several times a week for a period of five years. I presented my discovery to him and we discussed it to a degree. He said it was no big deal, it was just curiosity that led him to seek it out, and porn was almost impossible to avoid due to all the links available online. I told him it was a big deal to me, that it upset me and why. I gave him an article to read about how a husband’s porn habits may affect his wife so he would know my reaction was normal. He said, “I am sorry if I hurt you,” and said he will not view it anymore.
    I believe he has kept his word and is not actively into porn anymore. We are trying to spend more time together. I can tell by his little acts of service that he is trying to be a good husband. For reasons I almost understand in my head but cannot easily explain, our sex life has improved.
    However, every day I am plagued with unbidden thoughts and questions that fill my head. Anything can set them off. The sight of a beautiful scantily clad actress on TV or a pretty young woman in a tank top at the grocery store makes me wonder if he would have lustful thoughts about them that would cause him to think about porn. Or, I get frustrated by memories from earlier in our marriage when he didn’t like that I tried to turn him on by dressing provocatively for him in the privacy of our own home. His explanation at the time was that if I did it for him, I could do it for someone else. Yet, he enjoyed his Charlie’s Angels and Baywatch TV time, his friend’s Playboy magazines, and Kiana Tom’s Flex Appeal exercise show on ESPN. Google her, it was soft core porn at its finest.
    Back then, a few times I tried to explain to him how those activities made me feel and how my body image plummeted. I was careful to use “I” messages and non-accusatory statements. However, he immediately became defensive and indicated there was something wrong with me for having those feelings and to “just deal with it.” I believe my husband never connected these interactions with the deterioration of our sex life. As a result, I closed down inside and went about the business of child rearing and told myself I didn’t care. I now believe that was a mistake.
    Fast forward 30 years. The porn discovery caused mass confusion in my brain. Countless suppressed feelings popped up out of nowhere. Inside, I still have the feelings of my 28-year-old self in her young slender body. Outside, I am a 56-year-old woman slowly turning soft and wrinkled! I am still fairly slender, but come on, who am I kidding? How I can appeal to my husband after he has viewed hundreds or thousands of beautiful young women’s taut bodies? These thoughts seem to be the cause of an undercurrent of anxiety running through my mind.
    I have a strong need to explain these feelings to my husband. The couple times I broached the subject, he immediately became defensive and clammed up. So I dropped it. I keep the feelings to myself, but I fear this is the same ineffective mistake I made in the past.
    Outwardly, everything presently appears fine and our marriage seems to be better than it had been. But, I think in order to really get our marriage back on track, I need to talk these things over with my husband. I want to know what made porn attractive to him. I want to know why it wasn’t okay for me, his wife, to be provocative and sexy for him, but it was okay for him to view other women behaving in much more sexually explicit ways. I want to tell him that I wanted to be the one who turned him on, I didn’t want others doing it. Even though I couldn’t put my finger on the correct term back then, I want him to know it made me feel unloved when he preferred TV to me, and when he viewed porn.
    After 18 months, is it too late to explain myself and ask these questions of him and expect his understanding and answers? It seems to me the only way to get closure of the past and be able to move on to finally having a wonderful marriage. I constantly live in the present with these questions and the anxiety they cause, but I think he would view the questions as dredging up the past and refuse to talk about them.
    Thank you, Patty, for giving me a place to air my concerns and ask questions. There is no one in my personal life I can talk to about all this.

  • Hi, Lilian. I am sorry you continue to wrestle with the porn issue. As you know, I have three powerful tools I bring to all such problems.
    The first is Assume Love. If you temporarily let go of all your concerns that you might be living with someone who doesn’t really adore you and your body and want to stay with you, how might you explain his choices?
    – What might make a man who’s quite in love with his wife turn down the opportunity to see her in provocative clothing, even though he looks when TV characters dress this way?
    – What might make a man whose wife turned her attention from sex to child-rearing look at some of the porn available on the internet and TV, if he really loved her and wanted to remain her husband?
    – What might make a man who apologized and stopped looking at porn refuse to discuss with the wife he loves what made that porn exciting to view?
    These are tough questions to consider. It’s very hard to get out of our heads and into theirs, to recognize men have morality issues, body image issues, performance issues, and aging issues in addition to their libidos. When you’re dealing with what TV does to women, it’s hard to see what it’s also doing to our men. And if your brain doesn’t get any pleasure center boost from imagery, you may need to think about accidentally indulging yourself more than you intended on cookies, cigarettes, or TV shopping shows to see how porn grabs a guy’s attention, even though he’s not thrilled with his choice.
    It is very important to get yourself away from those other thoughts (the what does it mean about us questions) and muddle about for a while in questions of what it means if you are still madly loved.
    OK. Second tool: Expect Love. Every expectation is a premeditated resentment. If you are getting love, and your sex life is improving, and you feel safe from more porn, give some thought to any other expectation. There is nothing wrong with asking, as long as it is OK for him to say no. If cannot say no without losing your respect or gaining your resentment, it’s an expectation. Keep them to a minimum if you can.
    Third tool: Find Third Alternatives. Your first two are avoid talking about it (his preference) and talk about it until you can put this past grievance out of your head (yours). You can both have what you want, but first you need to be a lot clearer about what that is. For him, I expect he would like to avoid saying anything negative about you or hearing any criticism from you. You can most likely get what you need without either of those. But you need to get clear on what you need.
    Talking is the means to the end. So is an understanding of porn’s effects on your husband. What’s the end you hope for? Is it another apology, based on his understanding that you were hurting more than you let on? I expect you can get this without reading off the list of charges, as he seems to be working on a stronger relationship with you. Is it an image of yourself as a sexy woman? Why not just ask him to help you achieve this, without tying it to anything in the past? Is it a stronger bond between the two of you? By all means, share this intention with him and brainstorm ways to achieve it. Is it a better tool set for your sex life? Why not discuss ways to learn new tricks, instead of discussing why he likes different things from the women he watches and the woman he actually has sex with?

  • Thanks, Patty, for suggesting ways apply your three tools to my situation. I have read your comments several times and have been thinking about them. I need to figure out exactly what end I hope for. It may be a combination of the four you mention.
    It is very difficult to shed previous ways of thinking and the “what does it mean about us” questions, but I think I can do it if I concentrate and work hard at it.
    It might help matters if I could be sure I am madly loved by my husband and I could be sure I love him. Hopefully, over time, each of us will feel loved by the other.

  • Lilian, you have put your finger on the crux of most marriage problems:
    “It might help matters if I could be sure I am madly loved by my husband and I could be sure I love him.”
    I spent years pursuing this goal. That morning I woke up a widow, revisiting all my complaints and fears from the day before, it suddenly hit me. You will never know if you are madly loved by your husband. But if you are not, living as if you feel madly loved by him is probably your only shot at changing his heart. And if you are madly loved, living as if you feel madly loved by him is probably the only way you can properly reward him.
    Loving him? That is a choice, not something outside your control. You will feel the love when you notice that loving him makes his life happier, sunnier, easier or when you notice how much he deserves your love.
    Protect yourself from any real harm (violence, financial ruin, emotional beatings). But stop protecting yourself from the possibility that he doesn’t love you. It sucks all the joy out of your perception of your relationship, even if everything is just fine.

  • Dear Lilian:
    I read your post and it was like reading exactly what happened to me. Four and a half years ago, when we were nearly 33 years married I found out that my husband has been looking at porn on the internet for years, and I was totally clueless. He is a wonderful husband in every way. And to me he has been my Prince Charming since the day we met in 1970. We have a wonderful sex life, and everyone deserves a second chance. BUT my whole world as I knew it has changed for me. I cry by myself constantly, I have trust issues, my whole life has made a 180 degree turn and it is killing me. My most important things in life are Faith, Love, Trust and Respect. And all those have crumbled, yes they can be glued back but the cracks will be forever there. It took me by shock and surprise, I was totally CLUELESS of all. It is a heavy burden on my heart.

  • Dear Lourdes,
    Thank you for sharing your experience with me. While it helps to know I am not the only one affected in such a way by my husband’s porn use, I am sorry you have this heavy burden on your heart. I know firsthand how the shock & surprise of such a discovery punches right in the gut. And, it punches over and over, every time the thought of it comes to mind. I understand how difficult it is to deal with the despair and hurt feelings deep inside while going about your daily life on the surface.
    Question: Has your husband discontinued viewing porn? If not, be sure to read the earlier post that Patty links to at the beginning of this one. The article and the comments and Patty’s replies are a wealth of helpful information. If your husband has stopped, I believe this is a way he has shown his love for you. An online friend of mine, whose husband continues to view porn despite her pleas for him to stop, once told me it is “huge” that my husband stopped when he learned how much it bothered me. I try to remember this when thoughts of his porn habit wreak havoc on my mind.
    For many months after discovering my husband’s porn use, I scoured the internet for information on why men view it and how their habit affects their wives. I needed affirmation that I wasn’t alone in my feelings. I discovered Assume Love and, over time, I realized Patty’s words here were the most helpful to me. Reading about her perspective of assuming love opened my eyes to a whole new way of looking at my husband and my marriage. It hasn’t necessarily been easy for me to put this new perspective into practice. Some days it takes my utmost concentration and effort to remember to assume love. Some days I fail miserably. But, I keep working at it because it gives me hope for the future.
    Remembering to count my blessings also helps to keep negative thoughts at bay. I remind myself to be thankful for what is good in my life and that there are probably countless others who would gladly take my problems over their own.
    Lourdes, I hope you find something that works for you. Maybe reading Patty’s posts on Expect Love and Assume Love will help. Maybe some of the other information she recommends will be helpful to you. Maybe you will find something else. Just don’t give up. I hope that over time your crumbled Faith, Love, Trust and Respect will be glued together and one day you will discover that any cracks have gradually diminished in size until they are barely noticeable.

  • Heavy use of internet porn turns out to cause erectile dysfunction that can be overcome with time but not with pill. And the problem is worse for men who have had access to it since their teen years. You may want to have a look at Gary Wilson’s Your Brain on Porn site for more information if porn is disrupting your marriage.

  • Thank you Lilian for your update, you have no idea how much both you and patty have helped. There are days when I feel better, and others when I don’t. It is me, I know. My husband has not looked at porn since we discussed this almost 5 years ago. But I have a lot of issues to work out for myself, on trust and respect. Sometimes I feel stupid, sometimes I feel angry and betrayed. He is the best of husbands in every way. This just was something that never occurred to me and took me by shock! Thank you both a lot. Love, Lourdes

  • Lourdes, maybe they are not so much issues you need to work out as a disagreement between your two ways of looking at things — especially if you have not been able to work them out in five years.
    Maybe you are trying to talk yourself into accepting what you cannot accept or into compromising on principles. What you might try instead is going for a Third Alternative, an approach that satisfies both of you.
    The starting point would be this: “Dear husband, I truly want to trust and respect you fully, as I did when we married.You deserve this. But what we have tried so far has not worked, even though we both want the same thing and you have done what we both hoped would work. Can we sit down and brainstorm some new approaches? I want to grow in trust and respect, and I want to do it without shaming or hurting you. I need your ideas and your guidance on this.”
    This is where you figure out what it would take to make a solution work for each of you. Once you know what you’re looking for (which might take two or three sessions to figure out), you start brainstorming, listing ideas on paper to come back to later, no judgements yet.
    When you begin to run out of ideas, you start hotdogging, throwing out the most outrageous, over-the-top ideas that occur to you, belly laughs allowed. Sometimes there is a golden nugget in one of these that moves you onto a whole new line of thinking.
    I am betting there is something you or he or the two of you together can do that will restore your trust and your respect for this man who has tried for five years to give you what he thinks ought to restore them.

  • I’m suffering from sex & porn addiction, my fiancee jokes about it but I feel its serious now, all we do is argue over having sex, I watch so much porn when I’m stressed or not receiving what I need sexually from her, sometimes I watch porn like its a movie without even becoming aroused. She feels all I want from her is sex and I barely touch her or look at her without being sexual….I need help but I’m ashamed to tell anyone.

  • Internet porn has been fine-tuned to addict viewers and sell them more and more expensive access. Addiction is not something you can handle on your own.
    To learn more about this subject, I urge you to listen to any of Mark Laaser’s talks at the Smart Marriages Conferences. Listen with your fiancee. And then visit his website,, or find a local therapist, ashamed or not. This is nothing to ruin your life and hers with.

  • I have been with my fiance for 5 yrs. From the begining he told me porn did nothing for him…. Then when I was pregnant with our son I noticed he would spend alot more time in the bathroom or up late while I slept. I walked in on him on his smart phone. I just let it go. 2yrs later I find something very hurtful, he has been watching porn 5/6 times a week for a year or more…. While in that year we had sex 4/5 times, so he was using porn to substitute me. At first I thought because I gain so much weight while prego, but I dont think so. And it makes me wander if our whole 5yrs has been a distrustful lie. I dont know. Everytime I bring it up, its my fault because I dont do what he likes enough(alothough I do for him what I can with 4 kids in the home) I just dont know, we have gotten nowhere, he denies everything evrrtime I bring it up even though I have proof. I feel lost and unwanted and dont know what to do.

  • You cannot improve your marriage by arguing over whether he’s looking at porn or not. Whatever you feel you’re not getting because he’s looking or because he’s being untruthful about it? Ask for that.
    And, just in case he’s joined the millions of men who get caught in an awful loop of turning to porn to fix a problem that is actually caused by porn, ask him to take a look at this website: and offer to be there for him if it hits home.
    If he wants your help, and you happen to be a Christian, check out Dr. Mark Laaser’s helpful site: If you want to hear what he has to say without the religious parts, try his Smart Marriages conference talks instead. Dr. Laaser knows an awful lot about this topic.

  • I too have found my husband with his cell phone watching porn in the bathroom at night while (he thought) I was asleep.
    And I know he watches porn on that cell phone on a regular if not daily basis. He will watch when I leave the house, in the morning, and any time I have left for errands, etc.
    This has been going on for years.
    Years of marriage. Few days after we got married, he left for work and there were porn videos downloaded on the computer that he forgot to delete.
    This happened many times over several months. The images and the shock of that discovery are burnt into my memory forever.
    I talked to him about it and he did not know what to say about it at first. Then he told me it was a guy thing. There was nothing to worry about. I was ready to leave him I was so broken hearted. Then he apologized, said it was an old habbit and he would stop for me.
    Caught him again several times until I did not know what to think or say anymore. I felt lost and numb to the core. I felt inadequate, ugly, betrayed, worthless, hurt, angry.
    I stayed. I didn’t know what else to do at first and then I thought I would beat this habbit. Kick it right out of my husband. I thought I would be better than porn. I would show him.
    Years later, he still watches porn. I am devastated inside. And I am hiding my feelings. I get panic attacks. I see a therapist. I have wanted to change my body physically because I thought maybe somehow this would fix me and him. I asked him what he likes. I was ready to do anything for him. Then I would get this feeling of disgust and would not want to be with him.
    I thought I would kick the habbit out of him over time. I was really sure.
    I tried to settled with the idea. I thought maybe it is a guy thing and I am making a big deal out of it. And him lying to me is OK on some level.
    I compartmented.
    I did not want the roller coaster of doubting myself every other day anymore.
    We had a daughter. A beautiful amazing daughter.
    And I got so worried about him watching more porn with me being pregnant then nursing and being a new mother.
    It has been such soul and mental torture.
    All my love, my dedication, a beautiful daughter and a beautiful life have not made a difference.
    He has lied to my face, told me he does not do this anymore, that he is not “some scum bag”. And that he has not cheated on me.
    I get compliments and looks from other men. I think I am attractive, my girlfriends tell me so, and men do look at me. My husband tells me I’m beautiful and I am everything he’s ever wanted.
    I have considered that he might be addicted or have a compulsion to watch porn but still loves me. If that’s possible.
    I have had this naive vision and perception of love and marriage where I would love him wholeheartedly and he would too, and there would be no lies and we would be everything to each other.
    Now I feel my heart is shattered in tiny little pieces. I love my daughter so much and I think of her and what she may go through one day. My husband has taught her about telling the truth and how it is important to not lie and I had to hold back from asking him to stop, that day. And this makes me sad.

  • Jen, I am so sorry for your pain.
    First, I want to assure you of one thing. The fact that your husband watches porn says nothing more about what he thinks of you and your body than your watching NCIS or Sponge Bob Squarepants says about what you want in a husband. It is a form of entertainment.
    And it happens to be a highly addicting one. Those who sell it over the internet use all the same techniques that other marketers use to figure out what to offer each of their customers to keep them buying. As a result, men end up watching stuff they never would have imagined they could stand to watch.
    It is very intentional addiction, deliberately messing with their customers’ brain chemistry over time. Stopping is not like stopping TV watching, which would be hard enough for most of us. Stopping after several years in the hands of these internet porn junkies will be quite distracting from just about everything else and pretty stressful, along the lines of quitting smoking, maybe even harder. Your husband may have tried and failed several times, hoping to keep his promise to you.
    This is why I urge those who hope to rebuild a relationship with their husband to see it through his eyes. He thought going in that “it’s a guy thing.” He probably had no idea how harmful it is or how difficult it is to end. It is strength, not shame, that will bring him out the other side. As his wife, you have a lot of influence over whether he feels shame or feels strong and ready to fight this.
    I want to send you to two helpful websites. The first is The second is Both of these men understand pornography very well and work with men all the time to help them see the damage it does and to help them “detox” from it.

  • Please help me! I dont know what to do. Ive been married a year and it hasnt been the best year. On his stag do, 2 weeks before our wedding he went to strip club. Something he knew i didnt want and ever since my world has been shattered. I became suspicious and checked his smart phone and found that he had also been watching porn. It love him so much and i married him, now i dont know why? Since discovering he has been watching porn i have checked his phone constantly and seen everytime hes done it even when ive been at home and our sons. Ive just been trying to cope with it but my self confidence has taken an awful battering, i wish i was dead. Today is the final straw, after taking the morning off work and having sex as soon as the tyres on my car left the front of the house he was watching porn. I asked him if i could look at facebook on his phone and then i checked. I can see the time he searched ‘youjizz’ on his phone 12.40pm, i left for work 5 mins before. My heart is broken! I honestly can not see how a man can love someone and then be able to look at someone else, in my world that is not love. Right now, if i didnt have my children to think about i dont think i would be with him anymore. I feel so betrayed, hurt, ulgy and dangerously angry like i could kill someone. I understand a man has needs but 5 mins after i left for work and after we had just had sex a few hours before, ive never been so hurt. I dont know what to do? Ive tryed to talk to him, i dont get anywere, he doesnt even like to talk about sex. I feel my only option is to move on, im obviously not enough for him and im not going to live my life having a panic attack everytime he takes his smart phone to the bathroom.

  • Lucy Loo, this is not about his “needs,” and it is not about your sexiness or beauty. It is a very popular form of entertainment for men before they marry and, for many, it continues after they marry. With the advent of the internet’s ability to track his use of it, they can now fine-tune it to addict a man to this form of entertainment, to crave it with the same ferocity a drug addict craves a drug. And, most unfortunately, it can lead to erectile dysfunction in men too young to expect it, often leading them to seek more porn, not less.
    You do not need to accept it, but it helps to understand it, so you are not so awfully harmed by it. Indeed, many men can and do love their wives and look at porn or visit strip clubs. You cannot imagine doing such a thing to someone you love, but he cannot imagine how strongly it affects you. Men think differently from us women, not just because of how they are raised but also because they have different chemistry from us. Think about it: he probably fell in love with you even though he had easy access to porn. He was thrilled you entered his life, even though he could easily look at a hundred other women performing a strip tease for him. You are his preference. He chose you.
    I doubt it is his intention to insult or harm you. And there is another way men are very different from women. Respect matters a lot. If he’s doing something he sees lots of other men doing — and perhaps something he can no longer stop himself from doing without help — and he loses your respect because of it, he is likely to feel pretty much the way you feel about discovering he wants to look at other women when he’s got you to look at: devastated, and self-protective instead of loving.
    So now you two are in what Emerson Eggerichs calls the Crazy Cycle, in which nothing gets better and lots can get worse. It’s a horribly painful place to be. And it doesn’t stop when you divorce if you still have children to raise together. It’s well worth stopping the Crazy Cycle while you’re still married, even if you eventually decide you cannot find a way to live with each other because of it.
    So my suggestion is to get to know more about porn by checking out those websites I linked to in my earlier comments. (Don’t worry — they won’t make you look at any or try to convince you it’s no big deal.) Learn enough that you can have a calm and intelligent conversation with your husband in which you make it clear you want to love him and to be loved by him, but you are unable to do so while he’s entertaining himself this way, no matter how “normal” it might seem to him. And do it in a way that says you respect him, even though you cannot tolerate this one thing he does.
    But please understand this is not about his “needs” as a male, and it is not about your sexiness or beauty or his feelings for you. I don’t want you to feel all that pain. Truly, he is not looking at porn or strippers because you are not enough. He is doing it for entertainment, and he is quite possibly “hooked” on it now and unable to give it up without finding a reserve of strength that he is probably using right now to defend his choice. From all the comments I get from men on this blog, I am fairly certain your husband has little idea of how close he is to losing his wife. And he probably won’t hear the message until he realizes you still respect him, if not this one behavior, and still want his love.

  • Please help need some advice . I’ve been married for 14 years . My husband has always been caught watching porn. I dont approve of him watching it. I’ve always felt that it made him want to go out. And find some one that looked like them .So that has been one of our biggest problems . He has cheated on me with other women and has been caught talking to girls on the internet. So I have my reasons why I don’t want him watching porn . Now that we’ve been together for so long I’ve told him that if he wants to watch it to do it when I’m not around . I hate that if he watches porn he wants to touch me .it makes me feel like I can’t even turn him on and makes me feel that I’m not good enough for him. Is it ok for my husband to watch porn right after we have sex . I feel like it wasn’t good enough he just gone done seeing my body and now he’s watching porn. It really makes fell bad. Can you please give me some advice about this question . Or can other women give their opinion. I really need to hear what other women think .my husband Says that I’m the only one that thinks that way.I need to grow up. This is all disrespect to me as his wife.

  • Angel, you don’t have to accept porn as part of your relationship. You don’t. Even if other women find it acceptable or normal or even exciting, your relationship is between the two of you. You are not required to tolerate it.
    You might want to read this ( or watch this ( and encourage your husband to do so, too.
    His behavior affects you, but it is not about you, and no matter what you did to your appearance, you could not compete with it. I really hope you will let yourself off the hook on that one.
    And there is nothing grown up about accepting a behavior that can lead to ADHD, depression, memory problems, and erectile dysfunction for the man you love and self-esteem problems for you.

  • My fianceemail watches porn every day, he tells me that he doesn’t but I look at his history and there it is clear as day, we have had a lot of arguments over it and now I don’t bother saying anything to him about it but it is having an affect on our sex life and it gets me down knowing he would rather watch that than have sex – I feel like I’m at my wits end with it and don’t know if I can continue with our relationship if he carrys on watching it – if you have any advice on how to stop him from watching it that would be great I don’t know what else to do

  • You are not married to this man. Unless you have created children together, you are still in that period where you are sizing up each other’s character to decide if this really is the sort of person you can promise to stand by through better or worse, sickness or health, wealth or poverty. You don’t trust him. You don’t respect his privacy. He is willing to lie to continue doing something he knows upsets you and harms your sex life. This is no way for either of you to enter into marriage — or to start a family, whether intentionally or accidentally.
    I think a conversation with him that begins like this might help:
    “Your porn watching has already affected our sex life, my respect for your privacy, my ability to trust what you say, and your ability to tell me the truth. It is either a habit you value more than our relationship or an addiction. There is no hope for us as a couple unless it is an addiction and one you are willing to put an end to. Would you please take a look at or and let me know if there is any hope or if it is time to say goodbye?”

  • I have read all of the comments and answers on this site and sadly, I am in the same situation as many of these women. I have been with my man for just over 3 years. We are not married, but have lived together for the past (over) 2 yrs. I have been madly in love with him from the start and still feel that we are a great couple, but we have this issue. This is essentially the only issue we have (porn) and I am struggling with making a decision if it is worth leaving the relationship over or not.
    Like I said, we are highly compatible, I’ve not felt this strongly about anyone before, and we have a great sex life. We have sex probably 4-8 times a week and from the very beginning, I have made it a point that I would always be “available” for him sexually any day and time. And for the most part have done my best to do a “variety” of things that make him happy.
    Anyway, like many women here, I have found that my man will view porn videos or naked pictures almost daily. I understand when men do this when they are single or not getting any in their relationship, but that’s not the case here. So, I don’t understand why he does it. We have gone round and round for a year and a half arguing about this. Several times he’s said he would quit, but it is just a lie, he just gets better at hiding it.
    Over and over and over I have told him how it makes me feel (and by reading this site, I know I am not alone or crazy), but he just says that essentially that is a self-esteem problem of my own. I have gotten absolutely nowhere in talking with him. About 6 months ago I took a different approach. As I am trying very very hard to be ok with his “habit” I asked him if he would share with me some of the things he looks at. He said he would and never did. Two months after that, I reminded him, he said he remembered, but still never shared. Two months ago I reminded him of this yet again and very clearly explained that I was trying to get through this and why I thought him sharing would help and was very thorough in my explanation that I felt it would really help me to start feeling ok with this. He PROMISED to share what he was viewing. He broke his promise within a few hours. Five days later I sent him an email of specific scenarios (like a mini play) of him sharing so that he knew exactly what I meant by “sharing”. He re-broke that promise within days. The next week I sent 3 more scenarios to cover all situations and how I was hoping it would look like when he shared what he viewed and again, he denied having even looked at anything since his promise. This was a total lie.
    About 2 weeks later, when he knew I knew, he just gave up. He made up some big lie saying that he has just been pulling up porn as an experiment to see if I would be acting emotional when he got home. I suppose I forgot to mention he pulls up his porn in the car on the hour drive to and from work. Anyway, he said he wasn’t really watching it, he was just running an experiment on me to figure out how I know that he’s looking at porn. Blablabla… My take on that argument was that he knew he had been caught, and he knew, that I knew he had totally broken the promise he made.
    He is sooo completely desperate to view porn and naked pics that he lies and deceives and sneaks around and is very secretive about everything involving it. About 2 weeks ago, we had another big blowout about it where he said that he was so mad about the whole topic, and that I had ruined porn for him and that he would never do it again because he did not in any way want to share it with me and he was quitting just to spite me. Yes, it doesn’t make sense. That’s because it was another lie. It was him trying to pretend that he was quitting so that he didn’t have to hold to the promise he made, and in the meantime, he would just find another sneakier medium to get at it.
    Well, yes, he did–he found porn on instagram (yes, its there too). He was having trouble with his account and made a second and then a 3rd and spent hours getting the accounts straight and (unhackable–he thinks I am hacking him or something–quite funny). He is so DESPERATE to have porn in his life that he continually goes to these desperate extents.
    Herein lies the problem: As one could easily guess, I obviously feel that he values porn videos and naked pics of gorgeous models over this relationship. He is a very strong and stubborn man and just the fact that he knows I don’t like it has made him dig his heels in and be more stubborn about it. My problem is: is this the kind of man I want in my life? To share my life with? As I said in the beginning, without the porn issue, we have a fantastic relationship and I am crazy about him and he tells me all the time he is very in love with me. He constantly tells me how sexy I am and how he loves our sex life. (And yes, I AM sexy and beautiful, I used to be a model, but now I’m in my 40’s and obviously not as gorgeous as the 20yo nude models).
    The “talk” about this topic is over. There is nowhere else to go. I know that if I give him an ultimatum, he will choose to let me leave rather than bend on what he thinks should not be an issue.
    I have watched all those videos previously mentioned on this site and about a year ago even sent them to him and of course he picks them apart saying he’s not addicted, that addiction to porn is a farse, that he has no “problems” from it, etc. There is no way of convincing him of anything like that. Like I said, I have no more conversation left in me to offer, and just want to cry every time he pops on his porn and then later comes pawing on me for release. It frankly is starting to sicken me and has badly affected the love that I feel for him. On a momentary basis, it puts me in a little mini depression (mood funk), but on a longer term basis it makes me question if I could even stay with a man who can’t put my feelings above his habit.
    I believe he uses porn to get a little charge a few times a day and then when we have sex the orgasm is more powerful because of the several charge-ups during the day without release. But as so many other women here have stated, his lusting over other internet women for his charge-ups really hurts me emotionally. (See everyone else’s comments–all that.) So what do I do? I am crazy about him and I know he loves me as well. Do I figure out some way to accept this? Can I even do this? Do I throw away an otherwise great relationship because of this one thing. No, he doesn’t cheat, but yes, I do have trust issues because of his constant lying on this. Please help. We don’t have kids together, but both have kids from the past and our families have been integrated as if we are married. There is more at stake than just me moving out and finding another man. And–I do love him (but, yea, that’s diminishing with this issue). Help.

  • Watermelon Gal, it is entirely possible that porn matters a lot to him and his viewing is under his control. If it is not, and he’s addicted, caught up in the deliberate manipulation of porn vendors that ultimately leads to wrecking his ability to enjoy live sex or sustain a relationship, your sampling his pleasure with him to try to reduce your dismay with it won’t help.
    Broken promises, repeated lies, risking his life and others to watch while driving, and a “self-esteem problem” he’s done nothing about in a year and a half suggest it may be the latter.
    The short definition of addiction on the American Society of Addiction Medicine’s website is this:
    “Addiction is a primary, chronic disease of brain reward, motivation, memory and related circuitry. Dysfunction in these circuits leads to characteristic biological, psychological, social and spiritual manifestations. This is reflected in an individual pathologically pursuing reward and/or relief by substance use and other behaviors.
    “Addiction is characterized by inability to consistently abstain, impairment in behavioral control, craving, diminished recognition of significant problems with one’s behaviors and interpersonal relationships, and a dysfunctional emotional response. Like other chronic diseases, addiction often involves cycles of relapse and remission. Without treatment or engagement in recovery activities, addiction is progressive and can result in disability or premature death.”
    From their longer definition:
    “When…one engages non-pathologically in potentially addictive behaviors such as gambling or eating, one may experience a ‘high’, felt as a ‘positive’ emotional state associated with increased dopamine and opioid peptide activity in reward circuits. After such an experience, there is a neurochemical rebound, in which the reward function does not simply revert to baseline, but often drops below the original levels….
    “[I]n addiction, persons [who have developed a tolerance to the high] repeatedly attempt to create a ‘high’–but what they mostly experience is a deeper and deeper ‘low.’ While anyone may ‘want’ to get ‘high’, those with addiction feel a ‘need’ to use the addictive substance or engage in the addictive behavior in order to try to resolve their dysphoric emotional state or their physiological symptoms of withdrawal. Persons with addiction compulsively use even though it may not make them feel good, in some cases long after the pursuit of ‘rewards’ is not actually pleasurable.”
    It takes a good deal of strength to seek help to stop pursuing relief from that unpleasant emotional state, more and more strength as they dig themselves deeper into the mud. This often takes recognition of how much additional pain and loss they face if they don’t choose the pain of stopping their unproductive pursuit of the rewards.
    No one else can make the decision for them, and no one else can bring the needed strength to the task. But those who love an addict can avoid taking personally the addict’s relationship-destroying choices while they state the consequences of continued addiction and stick to them. This action also requires strength, because it puts the decision about whether to continue an intimate relationship with a loved one in the hands of an addict.
    I wish you both strength.

  • Hello,
    I have been married four years to a truly wonderful man. He is kind, thoughtful and my best friend. We seem like the perfect match and yet we have had our problems. Before we got married we talked openly about what we expected in a marriage including our sex lives. We waited until our wedding night…
    Anyway about a month prior to our wedding I stumbled onto the fact he looks at porn. It was apart of our discussion on what equals respect in a marriage and I made it clear I didnt want that to be apart our lives. My father cheated on my mother with a woman from the internet and what led him there was porn. So I expressed I couldn’t trust someone that viewed porn.
    It was super hurtful to see he was watching porn. He lied to my face about it multiple times. I told him if he couldn’t be honest now we couldn’t start a life together.
    He broke down, told the truth, we talked it out and I felt that we were moving on from it. Fast forward to a year and half and our sex life is not active at all. Dead bedroom. I tried many mainstream things to spice things up but no response. We talk it out again and he says he is depressed ect. We prayed together, did lots of things together, talked more and then bam using his phone when mine was broke and I am faced again with porn. He denies, cries, claims it wasn’t him, that his phone has a virus.
    I know he is lying but I don’t want to end things I love him. I try to understand did some research. Things get better in the bedroom. Well here we are at year four and I am miserable.
    He gets upset at me if I touch his phone, I don’t snoop as I want to trust him. Each time I have found porn on his electronics its been by accident. Well now I am worried he isn’t just looking at porn.
    I decided to snoop, I couldn’t take it with his over reactions to my touching his phone. What could he have to hide? Apparently a second facebook and twitter account, andan email to himself with a link to a porn site, a second email account I dont know the password to and a hidden web browser used for private browsing. I am to scared to look further.
    I am afraid of what I will find. I also don’t know how to bring it up if I even did as this time I truly did invade his privacy. Am I being crazy for suspecting him of something more? I don’t like him looking at porn but if he could keep it under control to where I did not find it or have it affect our bedroom activities I think I could move forward. However, hidden accounts? Oh and he applied for a big line of credit he never told me about but I open the mail and saw his rejection letter. That one turned into a fight as we had just talked about no more debt. He has over 15k in credit card debt.
    When we talk things out we are calm, he agrees and then thats it. I worry I cant trust him anymore.
    Yet, he never yells at me, mistreats me in any other way. He calls me his princess, and does little things for me or takes amazing care of me when I am sick(I have some health troubles). I know he is a good man, and I love him yet I dont feel I can trust him right now.

  • It definitely sounds like your husband has a real problem with this stuff, lilmiss. When someone is willing to lie to their spouse and put their spouse in debt to cover up an interest, it’s not just an interest. It’s usually a compelling addiction, and they are desperately trying to keep their spouse’s respect while losing control over their ability to choose their actions.
    Here are some other helpful resources:
    This page has some helpful tips for spouses:
    Because you two have battled over porn before, and because you have reason to connect it with infidelity (which is a pretty emotional issue), you might want to instead request your credit reports at and ask his help in improving your score if his porn purchases are affecting your credit. Before you do, you might request itemized statements from any credit cards reporting negative events, which will legitimately give you even more info than your snooping did.
    I know it sounds crazy to ask his help in solving your problem rather than demanding he stop creating it, but it makes sense. For men, for reasons of their hormonal makeup, respect is the foundation upon which all relationships rest. For women, it’s love.
    As a woman, you might say to your husband, “What difference does it make whether or not you respect me if you don’t love me? There is no relationship without love, and I don’t care what you think of me if there is no love.”
    For most men, it’s the reverse. They don’t want or care about your love unless they have your respect. And for anyone dealing with an addiction, it’s very easy to suspect everyone else of having no respect for them. Asking for help with YOUR problem shows you still respect him and his character, even if his current behavior is driving you nuts.
    It’s a treatable addiction, and it’s worth guiding him to some resources for ending it the moment he promises to stop those expenses. Let him know you understand it’s not an easy request after reading those sites, and it’s probably not a promise he can keep without some help from outside your marriage. Then give him the addresses to visit for himself and ask him to try something different this time.

  • Thank you for writing this post and responding to all these comments. It is so helpful to see all these stories.
    My husband has been dealing with trying not to watch porn for a couple years now. When I first found out, I was unsure if it was acceptable for our relationship or not. I actually tried watching porn with him, but it only made me uncomfortable. I wanted to enjoy it, but I couldn’t.
    There were several times later when he watched porn and I “caught” him, and several times where he watched porn and, because he felt so guilty about it, told me. He doesn’t want to watch it, but says there are times when he feels he has no control.
    We’ve been seeing a couples counselor, he’s been seeing a counselor by himself to work through the deep insecurities he has (#1 he had an incredibly difficult adolescence–his parents made him feel very guilty and shameful about his developing, normal, teen-age sexuality #2 his father has a history of sexual/ relational problems) and he also went to one sex addicts meeting. He came back from the meeting a complete wreck, having to say “I am a sex addict” was a terrifying experience. It’s strange–on the one hand I want him to go to the meetings and face this issue, but on the other hand I don’t even know if I believe he has an addiction. I think he has insecurities and things he needs to work through, but does he really need to call himself an addict? It seems like such a harsh label–one that is destroying him. I have never seen him as anxious and depressed as he has been since he went to the meeting. It is scary for me to see him so fragile and on edge. He can barely keep it together from day to day. I don’t know how long we can go like this.
    I also feel like his “addiction” is so small–he barely watches anything, he tells me when he does, sometimes he doesn’t even watch porn but just reads erotica–but we are going through hell trying to figure out what to do. My reactions to his porn watching have been traumatic for him (I’ve called him scum, I’ve told him I hate him and never want him to look at me or touch me ever again, I’ve threatened to leave) and I fear that I’ve compounded the situation to the point of irreversibility. We have hurt each other so badly. I fear that if only my reactions would have been less harsh, he never would have gone to the SA meeting and we could be on the path to recovery. As it is, I feel like he is destroying himself from the inside out from shame and guilt.
    I also feel like this is a more complex situation than people give it credit. Is it okay to say that I don’t know if porn is objectively bad? I know there are ways to create/ distribute porn that are fair and safe for all involved, and what if that’s okay? Porn is not healthy for our relationship right now, but does that make my husband a sex addict? How can I support him going through this trauma when I have caused some of it? How can I care for him without losing myself?
    In one specific instance, I told him I needed to disconnect from the situation to take care of my own needs. He couldn’t believe I needed to disconnect–he couldn’t believe I would use that word. Is he right for feeling hurt by that? Am I right for needing to take care of myself? I feel like we are both right, but how, then, do we actually interact with each other?
    We’ve hurt each other so badly that sometimes I wonder if we can continue to be together. I love him so much and I know he loves me, but how do we move past this? He is falling apart and taking me with him. I don’t want to fall into depression and despair, but I don’t want to leave him to his issues alone.
    I am sorry this is so long! This is the first time I found a porn thread that didn’t feel judgmental, overly religious, and accepting of both the porn watcher and the partner. This is a complicated issue, and so many people lump things into black and white categories that I know are not helpful. Thank you in advance for your listening “ear” and calm, loving words.

  • Needing Guidance, thank you for the feedback on this post. Sometimes I envy all my fellow bloggers whose religion tells them what’s right and wrong with all the force of a pronouncement from God. My world is a lot less black-and-white.
    Labeling your husband a sex addict sounds like a continuation of his unhealthy adolescence. It probably triggers an awful lot of confusing thoughts from those days.
    Many who lack any education on the subject confuse sex addicts with sex offenders. In fact, only about 55% of sex offenders are sex addicts. And my guess would be that far, far fewer sex addicts are sex offenders. The statistics are hard to come by because addicts in legal trouble are much more likely to seek help.
    But this may be the wrong group for your husband. What your husband describes is compulsion, being unable to control his behavior around porn. All sex addicts experience compulsive sexual thoughts and acts, not entirely unlike compulsive picture straightening, hand washing, or sidewalk crack avoidance. But what makes them addicts, according to the National Council on Sexual Addiction and Compulsivity, is “engaging in persistent and escalating patterns of sexual behavior acted out despite increasing negative consequences to self and others.”
    So far, the consequences have been his own guilt and his loss of your respect but not his marriage. What may have frightened him was hearing about those increasing negative consequences: enormous debt to finance porn purchases, multiple divorces, loss of access to their children, sexually transmitted diseases, fines, imprisonment, career and health problems because of all of these, etc., and being required to categorize himself with the others in the group. It may have been a ghost of Christmas Future experience, which would rattle any of us.
    Unlike drug or alcohol addiction and a lot more like an overeating addiction, dealing with compulsive urges to masturbate or look at porn is not an all or nothing choice. A man must manage a healthy path down the middle, enjoying sex without losing control to compulsion, enjoying one sexual urge and denying another.
    I think it’s excellent that he’s seeing a counselor, someone who can help him find and sustain this path and deal with the stresses and messed up beliefs that compel him to do something he knows is damaging his relationship with you. A wife can never replace a counselor for a problem that affects her, too.
    It’s also excellent that you are seeing a couples counselor. I hope this counselor is helping you distinguish between his choices about you and those other choices he makes for deep-seated reasons that take time to unravel. In the presence of this counselor, you might ask your husband if his private counseling has revealed any triggers for porn viewing that you should know about, so you can avoid adding to them.
    I hope you saw the list of resources I gave lilmiss in the comments. I think all of them could be valuable for you, too.
    For some couples, porn is just a difference in tastes to be worked out between them. But the moment anyone says they have no control and watch even though it makes them feel guilty, it’s a compulsion interfering with your ability to love each other fully. And both of you deserve to be fully loved. So far, it sounds like the two of you are taking the right steps, and I wish you every bit of good luck and patience on your path.

  • It’s funny as woman, a lot of us have such a strong sixth sense. My husband carried his phone EVERYWHERE with him. To the point where I knew as soon as he leaves it hanging around in moment of weakness, that phone was mine…something was just not right. Well one night he left it downstairs while he ran up to get changed. I grabbed the phone, checked messages first…nothing. Checked Facebook for anything, also nothing. I put the phone down. Then I heard that sixth sense kick in again saying keep looking. I picked up the phone once again and checked the history of his search engine (Internet) and bam! There it was, a porn web sight. My heart sank and naturally, I flipped out. I spent the next week unable to look or want to talk to him, instead sending awful texts ( but honest ones). He immediately got rid of his I-phone, and bought an old style, no internet access phone. He assured me he’ll do anything to fix this. Part of my terms was therapy- which we are currently going through. I still hear the voices “can you believe he did this to you??!” “Can you believe yadda, yadda”….I had to (and am still learning) how to ignore/ shut that down, because it will eat you up and drive you crazy. He messed up….royally. Sadly, society leads people to believe this is ok, it’s just sex. But it’s not ok. It minimizes the intimacy between two people. The internet makes it so easy and the visions of my husband watching other woman sickens me. I am glad he chose to turn away from porn. I won’t lie, I am worried that sooner or later he will be faced with the temptation once again and that he will want a phone down the road that will give him internet access, but I’m sure blocks can be placed. Trust is not there at this time- he is determined to prove otherwise. This is what we’ve learned so far: 1. Remove any porn, or any accessibility to get to porn (aka internet – if internet is needed can only access in front of spouse) nothing should be hidden from either spouse. 2. Talk about it – know it’s ok to feel betrayed and spouse needs to own it in order to fix it. 3. People make mistakes. This is (hopefully) someone you so very love and want to grow old with- give them the chance to work this out, so both can heal. Lastly, do not stop loving each other. At first I was sickened to think of even holding my husbands hand, but it all came back because HE is proving to me how much he wants to work this out & how much he loves me. Now, Let’s hope it stays that way….

  • men who have loving wives that treat them with respect and kindness, who treat their needs as important to them, those kinds of men don’t watch porn because they don’t need to.
    if your man watches porn it’s because you aren’t doing a good enough job at being a wife.
    it’s ok though, most women aren’t, it’s normal. best thing you can do is apologize to him for failing to hold up your end and go about your day, maybe even do something to improve yourself for your marriage.

  • Thank you for your opinion, rawr.
    Secretly viewing porn seems to me a terrible strategy for married men looking for more love, respect, kindness, or sex from their wives. The only way back to love is through love, which means identifying the difference in your opinions and looking together for a Third Alternative that pleases both husband and wife.

  • Me and my soon to be husband hit one hell of a snag in our… relationship. He has porn, and LOTS of it. Before I was okay with it, and we watched it together before we were dating; then we started to date and after a few days of daiting a letter came in from one of his ex’s. It was about how she loved him and she wanted to have sex with him. He explained to me who she was and he never spoke to her again once he started daiting me. But right after that I started getting stubborn about porn and I asked him to get rid of some of it. (Just stuff we didn’t like). He agreed. But slowly I started to notice that every were their was more and more porn. I even found a picture of a girls butt and asked him to get rid of it because it upset me so much, he threw a huge fit and said I was trying to erase his past… He keeps all of his pictures of his ex’s, but refuses to take pictures with me. And I get that he was single for about 4 years before he met me, but he knows how much it upsets me now and he still fights with me about it calling me selfish. His best friend just calls me a walking vagina, and that I am nothing more than a sex toy for my husband. Also that I am the bottom of the barrel. When ever my husband looks at another woman I feel that she has something that I don’t and he is searching for it in other people. He tells me he can live without porn and that when he looks at other girls he see’s something that he wants me in… But… He also says that they are… pleasing to his view, but not in a sexual way. But he always looks at things with big breasted and big hips woman… I feel like I am not what he want’s, even in the porn he looks for curvy (voluptuous) woman. with VERY big breasts and a VERY big, very nice butt. and then I get to look at myself in the mirror and cry myself to sleep. I have tried to explain it to him, but he just defends that porn means nothing to him, and that I am all that he really needs. But when I see other women now I get defensive and I believe that he is going to leave me for somebody prettier. He said he is trying to help me get back to where we were before, but when I make one tiny little step forward he assumes that I am 100% okay with porn again and he starts it up and looks again and then doesn’t understand why I’m upset, then he yells at me saying I am pushing him away and that I need to get better other wise he is going to leave me. He even brought his parents into this, and they both say I need to get the hell over it and be okay with myself. But if he looks, am I not good enough?? Why would he be looking at anybody else if I’m perfect (as he likes to say) for him? And on top of all this, it really doesn’t help that almost ALL of his friends who are girls, hit on him! IN FRONT OF ME! And he is saying that my jealous y is hurting him. one of the girls kissed his cheek, and I don’t even know who she was, but he said that was a really close friend of his and that I should calm down because she kisses everybody… But I said that if she didn’t give somebody else a kiss, (We were meeting her at a friends party), That she was not allowed to kiss him. He flipped on me saying how I was being TOO jealous, and that I was being unfair about everything. When we try to talk about this problem he says that he is too scared to look at anything because he doesn’t wanna make me mad, but when he thinks I’m not looking I see him look, smile, and even flirt with other women. Some he knows, and others that come up to him. His parents tell me that they would kick his ass if he ever did cheat on me, or left me for anybody else, and I know he would never leave me….. But… Why does it affect me so much to the point of actually thinking of hurting myself when I see him look at other women, or porn? Why do I hate myself now, when I didn’t before? What’s wrong with me, and how do I fix this??

  • >> Why does it affect me so much to the point of actually thinking of hurting myself when I see him look at other women, or porn? Why do I hate myself now, when I didn’t before? What’s wrong with me, and how do I fix this??

  • I found this site by accident but I want to offer a glimmer of encouragement to wives of men who use porn. My husband and I have been married a bit over a year. It’s my 2nd marriage and his first. He was a bachelor a long ling time and fell into porn use after a traumatic relationship that ended badly. Porn was easier than real life ups and downs with a flesh and blood woman. Fast forward 25 years to our marriage. I knew he used it but we actually both figured it would stop once we married. He wouldn’t need it! Wrong. He wanted to quit and I love him enough to want to help him. Has it offended me when he’s slipped up? You bet, but he’s always willing to discuss it with me and I make sure to approach it non judgmentally. Even though it’s HIS bad habit from decades of being alone I told him the marriage is now OURS and that makes this problem OURS to solve. To that end, he let me install filters on his phone and tablet – we share a computer and he rarely uses it. I have control of the filters and can check his history at any time. I told him these things would be tools to remove temptation as much as possible. Taking control where WE can. He told me after we did this he felt relieved and wanted to do whatever to preserve our marriage. When I have doubts or insecurities I tell him and ask him to hear me out. In exchange I don’t fly off the handle if he slips up. Facebook was our last hurdle and the way to make it less appealing for erotica or modeling sites? Have one account with both names on it, one shared password, and full access because of that to search history. If he searches it, he knows I’ll know it and will want to talk about it. He says he feels like he’s being held to a higher standard now and becoming a better man. I love unconditionally and empathize more now that I see it is a daily and perhaps lifelong struggle. I refuse to let porn win and have told him so! He agrees to keep fighting. So ladies, install filters, share accounts, put on keystroke logs if you must. This is NOT about trust, it’s about reclaiming and protecting our marriages from a hungry pack of wolves that would devour us if we let them. Don’t go down without a fight!

  • “men who have loving wives that treat them with respect and kindness, who treat their needs as important to them, those kinds of men don’t watch porn because they don’t need to.
    if your man watches porn it’s because you aren’t doing a good enough job at being a wife.
    it’s ok though, most women aren’t, it’s normal. best thing you can do is apologize to him for failing to hold up your end and go about your day, maybe even do something to improve yourself for your marriage.”
    This is the most close-minded, ass backwards load of trash I have read im a long time.
    To any concerned wife of a man who watches porn: no, it has nothing to do with you. Men are wired different then women. Not only are their sex drives usually much higher but they also are able to turn all their concerns and distractions off for sex – women aren’t able to do that very well. Men need that release and, in most cases, they’d rather just have that quick release. Its different for men – women would not understand just like men don’t understand how women take them watching porn personally.
    Also, you ladies cant sit there and say you don’t stimulate your clit to have a quick release every once in a while. we use our imaginations and men don’t seem to have that luxury. Quit taking it personally because, in most cases, its not.

  • Kayla, that was rawr’s personal opinion about why men watch porn. There is no need to attack anyone here for their opinions. Research on the subject suggests there are a good number of different reasons why some married men watch porn — and why others do not. And even when it is not personal, it can become have some negative effects on a couple’s sex life and finances. It’s definitely something every couple needs to work out to the satisfaction of both.

  • I would call Rawr’s previous statement an attack as well. There is fuel being put into a fire that doesn’t need to be there. Why is it OK to say that it’s the women’s fault for being a failure to the marriage and any man that is watching porn is being failed by their wife? Yet, it’s not OK for me to call that statement a close-minded load of garbage?
    Instead of putting blame on women for their husbands doing something that is normal (in most cases) why not reassure the woman that it is, in fact, NOT her fault at all and the fact that her husband watches a bit of pornography is a pretty normal and harmless thing?
    He is not cheating on you nor is he looking for sex elsewhere online. Like I said, men are very visual creatures and cannot just sit their with their dicks in their hand, close their eyes, imagine something sexy and finish the deed quickly. It usually doesn’t work that way. Are these wives mad their husbands are masturbating at all? If you do not let your man release that tension, you are going to have one very grumpy man walking around, feeling owned and on a short leash.
    Marriage is a two way street. Men sacrifice for their wives and it should work the other way around as well. Women need to stop being so paranoid about sex (and this coming from a highly anxious person). I used to be this way. I used to take it personally and get jealous just like every other woman here, but I’ve learned over the years that you are putting a fire under your marriage and it’s unnecessary. If porn turns into an addiction or into cheating (which can happen) then there’s an issue. But that’s not something a woman can change by being controlling and demanding. If you married a cheater, then that’s that. No amount of paranoia, snooping or dictating his every sexual move is going to fix or change that. Being OK with him watching an occasional pornography and allowing him to be himself without marriage hanging over his head every single time he rubs off is not going to help a marriage. In fact, don’t be surprised if your marriage suffers because of it.

  • Kayla, your experience could be very valuable to some of the women (and men) reading this page. However, if you read the other comments, you will see that not everyone who reads these comments is dealing with “a bit” of pornography or a normal and harmless thing.
    Some may indeed be dealing with a husband so full of resentment over his unmet expectations that he uses porn to try to get even. (Doesn’t work. You can’t get even with your spouse. You both lose when you try to.) Some may be dealing with broken promises and deceit related to porn use. (And no matter what you think of porn, broken promises and deceitful activities are not a healthy approach to a wife’s objections. Neither, as you point out, are snooping and dictating.)
    Others may be dealing with religious beliefs that make porn a sin, whether it’s natural or not to seek it out, thereby risking God’s punishment. Some may be dealing with a sex life diminished by much more than occasional use of porn by their mate. Others may be dealing with huge bills, even debts, from their husband’s porn use.

  • Yes, you are correct. There can be many factors here making the situation worse for different people. But the main idea that is being conveyed in this blog is that porn is not normal and someone even said porn use is the woman’s fault for failing her husband.
    By the way, just out of curiosity, what religions now-a-days consider porn a sin? Would masturbation also be considered a sin?

  • Kayla, I am not a religious person myself, and people even within one small branch of one religion tend to disagree with each other about specific sins, so I accept whatever religious people tell me they believe to be a sin. I understand that sin causes them guilt and fear of repercussions during or after their life, some of which also affect their spouses. Guilt and fear are not good for marriages.
    If I did not make myself clear in the blog post, I believe porn viewing is quite normal, even if a couple’s love life is just fine. So is feeling rejection when a partner looks at porn, even if no rejection was intended. And both can be taken to unhealthy extremes that create resentment or given up with just as much resentment. Every couple needs to come to their own conclusion about what works for them to keep their marriage free of resentment.
    I’m sure it is helpful to those who are weighing this decision to hear how you and your husband worked it out.

  • I feel like my points and questions are being misunderstood or overlooked completely. I appreciate you taking the time to respond.

  • Wow! I know I am not mainstream at all, and because I am careful about the filth I expose myself to I hadn’t realized that this was actually what people are thinking is normal and acceptable!
    Of course porn is cheating. Marriage is a Christian relationship as defined by the bible. Using only that logic, you can come to no other conclusion. I am shocked that woman are actually trying to accept this form or adultery in their marriages. How eternally sad!
    Please, giving in and accepting will only cause more pain in the end. Especially considering that we as wives are called to assist our spouses in the pursuit of heaven. How can we do so while encouraging or ignoring our husbands sin?
    I do know how difficult this is, I have been married to a porn addict for 15 years. I will never accept it, he knows that. If needed I will spend the rest of my life celibatly before accept porn as acceptable. No form of adultery is okay, why should porn be?

  • Hi, Sarah. I am so sorry for the pain your husband’s porn use must cause you: the fears for his afterlife and your ability to fulfill your religious obligations, the sadness of the distance it puts between you, the awful effects on your sexual relationship, the anger it causes.
    For others with porn in their marriages, these may not be present. Doesn’t matter. Their religious beliefs, their definition of good character, their definition of fun, even their definition of porn, should not affect your marriage, even if they ever become the mainstream.
    What other people do never matters in marriage. Any disagreement like this is a matter for you and your husband to resolve for yourselves, with patient, kind, un-jealous, humble, well-mannered, generous, even-tempered, forgiving, truth-rejoicing love.

  • Its a disease. google Dr OZ porn and watch the 4 part series Dr Oz’s show did on it with the leading Drs in all fields physically, psychologically and nuerologically. Porn actually changes the brain by rewiring through the reward zone known to releases large amounts of dopamine to create the elevated “high” of sex and right after. Over time Scientists have had a hard time doing any conclusive research because that requires a group of men who dont look at porn at all and then it was hard to find. It takes more and more over time, they found, to provoke the same reaction in the reward zone of the brain. so it takes more and more and more shocking developing a degradation of sexual perception warping it. The high is comparable to a hit of heroine or nicotine. It promotes laziness in the males part to satisfy the woman laving the woman feeling unwanted undesirable. Now we have a epidemic with the generations are being plagued of 12- 30 yrs olds having Pornographic Erectile Dysfunction which is a psychological issue that cant be cured or fixed easily with viagra or any ED drugs. Men are delusional children who will compulsively lie to protect their wrongdoings after all noone cane make you feel guilt or shame if you have done nothing wrong and know that you havent. Men will lie and try to defend it but its wrong period. The studies show that their masterbation techniques change over time which causes the penis to become adjusted to the new sensation as being normal and arousing not the feeling of the vagina. Its a war we women need to put a end to this smut and disease on our sons brothers and men. Remember how we all loved to use asbestos to insulate everything and was widely accepted. and now its federal crime to have in building for health hazards. people in general are dumb nieve and amped to jump into the mentality of mass or group logic. In history we have noteably seen that usually its the masses who are wrong and its up to individual minds to set it right. Examples slavery, crusades, the holocausts on the germans as a result of the versaille treay in france then the massacre of the jews. Take him to a porn addiction treatment program. your feelings are real dont ignore them or try to bury them.

  • I could be wrong, but I think it isn’t the porn watching that is the problem. What’s really the issue are emotional problems in the relationship at hand. The first thing with this is each person can only change him or her self, in this case, it would be through healing and the fastest way would be by crying. An emotionally stable person would not create mistakes in a relationship and would not watch porn to relieve stress ( which is usually emotional tension ). Knowing what your emotions are is the first step, healing them is the very important rest of the steps.

  • Thank you, Han Wao. You are so right. Recognizing and dealing with emotions is quite often a huge help for someone who wants to stop watching porn when watching is upsetting to their spouse.

  • Hi there.
    First of all, I’ve read every comment and it has put me at ease to know I’m not crazy, making mountains out of molehills, or blowing this out of proportion.
    My husband and I have been married for a year. He’s a wonderful, wonderful man. He’s caring, sweet, respectful…
    But this issue has been a constant source of trouble for us.
    It started when we were still dating– he was moving to the other side of the country for a job so I moved with him. He left his email up on my computer and, by accident, I saw he had been looking at naked photos of his ex. I confronted him, we had a huge blow out, and I actually had to *ask* him to delete them (which he did).
    A few months later, my sister let me know that she saw he had recently followed a “cam girl” on Instagram. I asked him why he would do that and he got very defensive, directing his anger at my sister for telling me. He unfollowed her, but stated that it was “his account, he should be able to follow who he wants”
    This set off a bit of a jealous, mistrusting stage that I’m not proud of. I started snooping, and I found out that he was on sex sites– the ones where you add your profile and get to connect with all the people in your area looking for sex.
    First of all he denied that the sites were active, and would not fess up even after I caught him in a few lies. He told me he was just doing it to look at photos and “see if he knew anyone” (???) and told me he wouldn’t visit those sites again. Which I believe that he hasn’t.
    Then I found out he was using SnapChat and Tumblr to get porn. I told him I had an issue with that because of how “real” it all was (mostly nude selfies) and he told me he would not use those sites. I did catch him using Snapchat and looking at a naked woman’s snaps. He denied it to my face over and over and finally fessed up, saying he was only looking because he read an article where someone had died and recognized the name and wanted to see if that was her. Again, I let it go, although I told him that catching him in a lie again was very damaging to my level of trust.
    We eventually had a very long, emotional discussion about his porn use. I asked him to stay away from the amateur stuff, and really went in depth about how it makes me feel. I told him that it makes me feel inadequate as a wife, even if he tells me it shouldn’t. I told him that it lowers my self esteem, that I view it as a form of infidelity because he is getting sexual gratification from someone other than his wife, and that it was something that really, truly hurt me. I acknowledged the fact that this could be due to my own insecurities, but also that even if he didn’t think I should feel that way, it didn’t make my feelings less valid.
    … He basically told me that he wasn’t going to say he would stop, because that would be a lie. He said he has done it since he was 14, and that it’s something he doesn’t do often and he does it for himself.
    I know that he doesn’t do it often and sometimes I feel very selfish for wanting him to quit. Neither of us are religious but I was raised with old school values and I firmly believe it to be a form of infidelity. What bothers me most, however, is his reaction. To me, it seems as if he is putting this activity over the happiness of his wife and the health of our marriage. He said that isn’t the case because he doesn’t do it “to intentionally hurt me” and that if I “don’t catch him this isn’t an issue”
    I tried telling him that just because he thought he wouldn’t get caught didn’t make it right, and that I felt very disrespected feeling like he was doing this knowing how hurt it made me. I suggested therapy, which he laughed at at first and then responded angrily to.
    I’m at a loss right now. I don’t see how this wonderful person could not care when I’ve been trying to make him realize how much this hurts. It may not be a big deal to him but it is to me, and no amount of “you shouldn’t feel that way” is going to change that. I feel like he is choosing his own pleasure over our happiness together. He is absolutely “putting his foot down” and “not compromising” on this.
    Other than the occasional disagreement (usually about this or his work schedule) we have a wonderful marriage. We are very happy together. But I feel like his reaction to this is cause for worry. I don’t want to leave him over something so silly, but at the same time I know that we will just continue to keep arguing if this is not settled. I don’t know what to do!!!

  • Dear At a Loss, this can be such a frustrating difference of opinion between a husband and a wife. And I won’t tell you to just get used to it. But perhaps it will help your discussions on the subject if I point out a few things.
    You wrote:
    I’m at a loss right now. I don’t see how this wonderful person could not care when I’ve been trying to make him realize how much this hurts. It may not be a big deal to him but it is to me, and no amount of “you shouldn’t feel that way” is going to change that. I feel like he is choosing his own pleasure over our happiness together. He is absolutely “putting his foot down” and “not compromising” on this.
    If he were to write to me, I imagine he might write:
    I’m at a loss right now. I don’t see how this wonderful person could not care when I’ve been trying to make her realize how important this is to me. My freedom to continue being me may not be a big deal to her but it is to me, and no amount of “you shouldn’t feel that way” is going to change that. I feel like she is choosing her own pleasure over our happiness together. She is absolutely “putting her foot down” and “not compromising” on this. And she’s not just objecting to the porn she knows about; she’s snooping on me, like I’m some 13-year-old instead of her husband, trying to find more reasons to get angry at me.
    There may not be a Third Alternative for the two of you on this issue, but if there is, the search for it begins with your acknowledgement of how important the porn and his freedom to continue to enjoy something he’s long enjoyed is to him. And it ends successfully only when you two find a solution that makes both of you comfortable in your marriage.
    You’re not likely to convince him there’s good reason for you to lose self-esteem or feel cheated on by an activity no less normal and moral to him than watching murder mysteries. And he’s not likely to convince you to believe any longer that he’s trustworthy even if he stops, because he’s made it clear he’s been trying to evade your notice to protect your relationship.
    So start with this question: what would make you feel so secure in your own sexuality and your appeal to him and his commitment to physical fidelity that you could shrug off what he chooses for entertainment?
    And for him: what would have to happen in this relationship to make that form of entertainment a snooze not worth pursuing?

  • I recently discovered my fiance’s computer history after misstyping into the search bar. Not only does he browse more than 20 pages of porn videos at a time but searches for porn stars’ personal accounts on social media. He claims he was letting an employee use his computer and pointing out a pornstar to him. But this incident happened before on days when he wasn’t at work at all. I told him I feel worthless. He told me I am overanalyzing it. I’ve known he’s watched porn but didn’t think he did any more. I am significantly younger too mind you. My body is just as taut and curvy as these women he gawks at. So now I don’t feel good enough. He doesn’t view porn as cheating..yet if I did this mess to the extent he has..all hell would break loose. Porn is unhealthy to me and disrespectful. I now feel unloved completely. I don’t want to get married to someone if they’ve got eyes for other women. I refuse to watch porn because it puts a falsehood into minds and gives faithful partners a complex. He says he feels dirty now because I discovered what he did. Bit in all actuality I feel disgusting and ashamed. Am I overreacting? Because I know if I approached him with the idea of me doing adult films…HE WOULD LEAVE.

  • Let’s separate two things, Nicole.
    Watching porn is not evidence that your fiance doesn’t love you. It’s a very common activity that many men enjoy. Not the healthiest of habits, but not one that indicates he’s looking for something better than the woman he loves.
    But it’s something you two disagree about. His watching of it affects your feelings for him and your feelings about your own worth. And the effects on you are only likely to worsen as he keeps looking at woman who look the way you do now even as you go through pregnancy, maybe get stretch marks from it, and grow older.
    He says he doesn’t view porn as cheating, yet he acts like a cheater, lying to you about it, rather than acknowledging your disagreement and trying to find a comfortable alternative to your at-odds preferences. And you take the moral high ground when you justify your distress by imagining his distress if you did something you see as equivalent, another bad direction for a couple.
    He’s not bad. He’s not deceiving you about his love for you. And you’re doing what you’re doing because you love him and want this problem to go away. But you two can’t go into a marriage — or risk starting a family without marriage — with such poor relationship skills.
    I hope you’ll read some of my blog posts about Finding Third Alternatives. Maybe read Stephen Covey’s book The Third Alternative. Maybe take a marriage education class. lists a lot of them.

  • It’s almost has been 50 years since married and maybe we’ve had sex I would guess a dozen times. He told me from the get go I was a lousy bed partner so he wasn’t going to be my bed partner any more. He moved to our basement and he would be going on the midnight shift. That way he wouldn’t have to talk or argue with me. He had a good supply of porn movies and books and magazines. I was upset, he told me that he masturbates to the porn and it’s alot more fulfilling than me. Talk about being sad and frustrated humiliated depressed. I didn’t leave him which I should have done. I think as depressed as I was I was afraid to move on. I really had no where to go. But way to late now and told
    toOLD to move on, I made my mistake and I have to live with that.

  • I’m so sorry to hear this, Amy. At least he took his disdain to the basement. and left you the bedroom. The 60s were a different time. I hope most women hearing anything this disrespectful and insulting today will be able to find a way to move on if they can’t resolve the problem with their husband.

  • I’m sorry but I disagree. I’m sick of reading about how women shouldn’t judge. Women shouldn’t get angry. Damn right they should! This is cheating, especially, and more so, if he is hiding it. What is YOUR definition of cheating??
    Cheating is deceit, lies, when a person deliberately hides something from another.
    Cheating in a relationship is when one person CHEATS another out of their right to be fully loved, fully respected, fully honest with them, fully faithful to them.
    In the digital age, affairs within our relationships are changing just as much as communication, the way we watch TV. Why is it okay if a wife/fiancé/partner decides to send her husband/partner sexy photo’s of herself or they ‘spice’ things up by sending each other videos, only for her to find out he also ‘watches’ videos of other women?? How is that not crossing the line? And why shouldn’t she be hurt and angry about it? That would be exactly the same is if they had just had sex and a few hours later he went and had sex with someone else.
    Also, I absolutely hate it when people say ‘boys will be boys’ or ‘what do you expect, they’re just men?’ This implies, that ‘all men’ are mindless sex-crazed beasts who can’t control themselves and that’s just shameful.. Women don’t like stereotypes about them, why should there be stereotypes about men?
    They are not beasts controlled only by their sex. They are human beings with a functioning and able brain just like every one else! They can make decisions and despite what people might want to continue to argue ‘not all men are the same’ – some absolutely recognise porn and going to look for other naked women online IS betraying their significant others and have never done anything like it… That tells me, men, like women aren’t driven by their sex or hormones or their need, they can control themselves if they want to because each and every one of us has the responsibility of our own personal choices and that includes asking for help for the RARE few who are sucked into the ‘addiction’ faze of porn (if there is such a thing, which is still being debated).
    At the end of the day, to you women, me included because I say all this as someone who has gone through it and still am facing an uphill battle of physical insecurities etc. Your MAN is not your CHILD, he had a choice and he chose to hurt you, betray you, lie to you, destroy the trust in your relationship and make you feel like shit about yourself. He absolutely deserves your anger. He doesn’t even deserves you at this point but that’s something you have to think about… What you really need to do is go to a quiet place and examine what treatment you are going to accept. Personally, I won’t feel like I’m competing against a phone or a computer in my own home or anywhere else. I won’t feel like I have to compete against hundreds of very real women no matter how airbrushed they are for the camera. I won’t be cheated on digitally, emotionally or physically because when I invest all of my heart, my loyalty, and my soul, I expect it to be given back and if it’s something I find easy to do then the person who says they love me, who has a child with me and put a ring on my finger, should find it easy too.
    Men and women – You will ALWAYS get treated the way you ALLOW yourself to be treated. I’m not saying leave the person you’re with due to porn, but I am saying never put up with it… Ever. Make sure he/she knows you will always do everything in your power to find out about it, that it will always be a problem and it will always be considered cheating and a HUGE turn off… It might take a few times but eventually they will realise it’s not worth the hassle, the fighting, and how much hurt they put you through…Just hope you don’t lose yourself or your self confidence too much a long the way… It is a great possibility.

  • Thanks for your view of this, Sammie. As I wrote in the blog post:
    “You don’t have to accept porn as part of your relationship. You don’t. Even if other women find it acceptable or normal or even exciting, your relationship is between the two of you. You are not required to tolerate it.”
    I meant this.
    And I think you hit on something really important in your second paragraph:
    “Cheating is deceit, lies, when a person deliberately hides something from another.”
    I wholeheartedly agree. That’s destructive to a relationship, whether it’s porn or spending or what one of you lets the kids do that the other doesn’t approve of.
    And it’s why I think we need to temper our initial response to porn viewing if it offends us and we’re married to someone who believes it’s normal or even helpful in their particular situation, which turns out to be a lot of us women. Shaming seldom encourages a change of heart. It’s more likely to encourage deceit.
    The deceit is more damaging than the porn viewing, and it also puts a man in a position to become one of those who get addicted, as described in the earlier blog post I linked to. Addiction is damaging to both the porn viewer and the marriage, and the porn industry invests quite a lot of money into figuring out how to addict their customers.
    I do NOT believe we need to accept porn. But it would be really healthy if we could manage to discuss what we want without shaming our husbands. We’d be a lot more likely to get what we want that way.
    It won’t always work. There are some men who will chose their “freedom” to watch whatever they like over the woman they married. But the majority of men, I believe, are very loving when they feel respected, loving enough to abandon a habit or do without something they enjoy. Shame, on the other hand, makes no one feel more loving, ever.

  • Porn has had such a massive influence in my life, it is quite saddening. I’ve tried being ok with it, but the fact that my partner pleasures himself while lusting after other women feels like a knife twisting in my chest. He cannot help he finds others attractive. I’ve picked up weight in the last year, and I know my desirability has decreased in his eyes. For a while I was feeling safe enough in myself and our relationship to be ok with his preferences, but some accidental derision towards my appearance on his behalf made me spiral again. Every new porn star he follows on instagram is a reminder of my undesirability. We have argued about it, but he feels I am oppressing his sexuality and nagging unnecessarily. He has also mentioned that he has become used to his former partner, who was amazing enough to “accept him as he is”. The subject has pretty much convinced me that I am unsuited for a relationship, because I cannot get over the feeling of betrayal when it comes to porn, and I have never met a male that does not watch porn.

  • Annegret, there are many men with no interest in porn and others more than willing to forego it for a shot at a real relationship with a fellow human. I would encourage you to work on your differences if you were married and had committed yourselves to each other, but in your case, this sounds like someone with no commitment to you trying to bully you into accepting something that turns you off and even makes you feel there’s something wrong with you.
    I am particularly amused that he thinks you should become more like his last partner, someone he believes was more accepting. She’s gone, and his inability to deal with his partner’s feelings of oppressed sexuality while going on about his own just might explain that.
    It doesn’t matter what his sexual preference is, whether it’s pleasuring himself in front of doctored photos of other women, licking your feet, or peeing in a diaper before sex. If it turns you off while turning him on, the two of you need to look for a Third Alternative that works for both of you. There’s nothing wrong with either of you (and you’ll never find that Third Alternative if you insist there is), but there’s something very wrong with your relationship if you don’t find a sexual style that works for both of you or if he’s unwilling to join you in looking for it.
    If you go looking for a partner better suited to your sexual preferences, try two things: (1) go to hobby or activity related events (astronomy clubs, ski clubs, art classes, canoe trips, museum workshops, a volleyball team, etc.) to meet men, rather than dances and bars, to increase your chances of finding one who doesn’t spend his time and money on porn, and (2) stay modest until you know a man’s character well enough to ask his opinions on porn in a relationship and tell him that porn viewing is a huge turn-off for you.

  • Personally, I won’t accept my husband watching porn. i caught him using a software that scanned his device for porn. He did admit after being caught red-handed. I then asked him to delete his porn which he did. I got the software from:
    [link deleted per Assume Love policy]
    I hope he keeps his promise.

  • my boyfriend amd i have been togwther for a little over 2 years. allmost a year into our relationship i found out that he was getting up at night after i fell asleep if we didnt have sex and was looking at porn. apprently he had been doing this the entire time we had been together. it tore me appart. he seemed to feel aweful about hurting me like that and tried to explain that he just has very intense urges and if we didnt have sex he was so overwhelemed with sexual urges that he couldnt sleep. we talked alot about it and i told him to video us and use that insted. and that i would try to be there for him more even if that ment giving him a handy. i thought we had solved the problem and we could move on. but over the next year i continualy found out he was still watching porn and anytime ifound out and would bring it up he would get mad and tell me i just didnt understand and didnt even try to understand. that he was born with a curse of anxity and i just didnt get it. he tells me he is trying to quit and that he chooses me allways over it and that he thinks im the sexiest woman alive to him and the porn could never compair to me or the sex we have. and for a while he did stop to the point where i gave up on going threw his phone cause i felt like i could finaly truat that he was done with it. after months of not checking up on him something inside me told me to look the other day and while it may only be once a week he is back at it. again i was crushed. i thought we were finaly past it and again it was the same speil that i just didnt understand. only this time he brought up that when i watched 50 ahades(befor we were together) that it is baisicly the same thing. i tried to explain to him how different it was and that i dint look at it the same i mean hell i went with my friends to the theater. its not like i was jerking off to it. he still says its the same thing. and then also brings up the toys that again i used befor we were together (i was single to 2 years) and how he felt like he couldnt compair to one(which he is bigger than ) and how does he know i dont use those since i wont get ride of them. i told him i dont have a need for them and that i will get rid of them. he still trys to compair that to his porn. i dont see it that way. it hurts like hell to think of him getting off to other women no mater how many times she tells me he prefers me. he tells me he is trying but rhen the very next day he thought i was asleep and went in the bathroom to watch it. ive tried telling him if he feels the need to watch it to watch it with me thinking maybe i would feel less betrayed but he says thats just weird. ive tried letting him make videos of us to use in the moments he needs it and he gets board with them and goes back to the porn. i dont know what else to do. he refuses to see a counsoler cause he dosnt see it as a problem and says every man does and if they say they dont they are lieing. i dint belive that. and it doesnt help the situation that he spilled to me every reason why he never wants to get married ine night when he was drinking. but then tried telling me later that he does he is just scared. i love this man with al i have and in every other aspect he is the most perfect amazing man. but this is killing me and if it doesnt stop i fear in years to come that it will become worse and if we do get married will ruin our marrage. if anyone has any advice or can even shed some light helping me to understand how he feels would be greatly appreceated.

  • Kylie, there is a good chance it WILL get worse. Why? (1) Because he’s using it to handle anxiety and that anxiety will increase if you two become parents or if either of you is unemployed or employed in a toxic job. (2) Because the porn industry has spent a small fortune making porn addictive to sell more of it, and they’re being very successful. Seeking variety is a big part of it, and they’ll do their best to lure him to varieties most woman will refuse to compete with. (3) Finally, something you have some control over: the quality of your relationship, as he experiences it, now includes snooping, lectures, pleading, and shaming. And these will likely take a toll on his interest in you as his sex partner over time.
    The quality of your relationship, as you experience it, is already quite stressful. Pleading isn’t working. The great alternatives you suggested aren’t working. His arguments that this is no different from erotic movies or sex toys aren’t working. And you’re both convinced it’s the other one who doesn’t get it — he feels like a normal, justified man, you feel like a normal, justified woman.
    And you’re both right. Many men use porn. Many women despise this. Many men don’t use porn. Many women don’t care about (or even enjoy) porn as long as their sex life together is good.
    You’re both normal. So what? It’s not working for your relationship. Does this matter enough to you to end the relationship if he won’t find another way to deal with his anxiety, like a daily workout, meditation, yoga, or therapy? Does this matter enough to him to end the relationship if you won’t find another way to deal with his porn use, like letting him keep it secret and focusing only on whether it leaves you with a good enough sex life with the man you love? If not, it’s likely to just grind down the relationship until you both want out. And it will be the same whether you two marry or not.
    To find your Third Alternative, you need to get clear on what you want in a solution that keeps you together and enjoying each other. Is it to feel sexier to him than those actresses and models are? Is it to know he’ll never masturbate without you? Is it to feel more confident that he won’t reject you if you don’t keep up with his sexual requests and tastes? You can ask for any of these. You can also ask for no more ever of what he finds normal and relaxing, but you may find the only Third Alternative for this is going your separate ways.
    Once you’re clear on what matters to you, you need to get clear on what matters to him. And most people are incapable of sharing an intimate, vulnerable answer to this question while they feel shamed or threatened or likely to be manipulated into losing a negotiation. This must be an open, honest, and, most especially, safe discussion.
    But once you get those two sets of requirements out there and both give up the need to be right, I believe you can find a solution that works for you.

  • Kylie, there is a good chance it WILL get worse. Why? (1) Because he’s using it to handle anxiety and that anxiety will increase if you two become parents or if either of you is unemployed or employed in a toxic job. (2) Because the porn industry has spent a small fortune making porn addictive to sell more of it, and they’re being very successful. Seeking variety is a big part of it, and they’ll do their best to lure him to varieties most woman will refuse to compete with. (3) Finally, something you have some control over: the quality of your relationship, as he experiences it, now includes snooping, lectures, pleading, and shaming. And these will likely take a toll on his interest in you as his sex partner over time.
    The quality of your relationship, as you experience it, is already quite stressful. Pleading isn’t working. The great alternatives you suggested aren’t working. His arguments that this is no different from erotic movies or sex toys aren’t working. And you’re both convinced it’s the other one who doesn’t get it — he feels like a normal, justified man, you feel like a normal, justified woman.
    And you’re both right. Many men use porn. Many women despise this. Many men don’t use porn. Many women don’t care about (or even enjoy) porn as long as their sex life together is good.
    You’re both normal. So what? It’s not working for your relationship. Does this matter enough to you to end the relationship if he won’t find another way to deal with his anxiety, like a daily workout, meditation, yoga, or therapy? Does this matter enough to him to end the relationship if you won’t find another way to deal with his porn use, like letting him keep it secret and focusing only on whether it leaves you with a good enough sex life with the man you love? If not, it’s likely to just grind down the relationship until you both want out. And it will be the same whether you two marry or not.
    To find your Third Alternative, you need to get clear on what you want in a solution that keeps you together and enjoying each other. Is it to feel sexier to him than those actresses and models are? Is it to know he’ll never masturbate without you? Is it to feel more confident that he won’t reject you if you don’t keep up with his sexual requests and tastes? You can ask for any of these. You can also ask for no more ever of what he finds normal and relaxing, but you may find the only Third Alternative for this is going your separate ways.
    Once you’re clear on what matters to you, you need to get clear on what matters to him. And most people are incapable of sharing an intimate, vulnerable answer to this question while they feel shamed or threatened or likely to be manipulated into losing a negotiation. This must be an open, honest, and, most especially, safe discussion.
    But once you get those two sets of requirements out there and both give up the need to be right, I believe you can find a solution that works for you.

  • Four years ago I was diagnosed with skin cancer and found out my husband had been watching porn for six months coinciding with my treatment for cancer. He didn’t stop of his own accord, only after I got suspicious and confronted him about it. He lied that evening saying he wasn’t watching porn and told me he was the next morning. We are still together, just, but it has taken four years of torture to finally get the truth out of him. He tells me that he loves me but I find that hard to believe, how can you love somebody while looking at naked women. He says he was looking at boobs and that’s all it was but to me it’s a whole lot more than that. I feel devastated, hurt, betrayed. I feel cheated on. He’s looking at women 20 to 30 years old and I’m 49 and it’s knocked my self confidence big time. I saw a councillor for a time at the beginning but now have had to go back to her again. Some days you can get on with it and some days I wake up and stand in front the mirror and ask my self what’s wrong with me. Until then we had a wonderful perfect marriage but now I struggle to trust him and wonder if we can beat this.

  • Julie, I am so sorry you’ve had to fight to regain your self-confidence. That’s a nasty blow. This is one of those areas where men and women tend to disagree a lot. I am fairly well convinced that men are being honest when they say looking has nothing to do with their love for their wives. Some stop as soon as they realize what effect their looking has on the women they love. That seems to me to provide some confirmation of their claim — they won’t do something that seems harmless to them if it harms their wife.
    It can feel so personal, so obviously wrong, such a betrayal, to the wife and yet so ordinary and normal to the man. Some couples manage to use this discovery of their radical differences to learn more about how the other one loves. Others use it to shame each other, and their love dies.
    It’s understandably hard to hear your husband glibly say he was looking at boobs and nothing more. But he’s saying this to the woman he loves. He’s saying his love for you has nothing to do with these boobs he’s looking at, maybe nothing to do with your boobs, either. Aren’t you the least bit curious what it IS that he’s paying attention to about you that he finds so lovable? Wouldn’t it be great if it’s not a part of you that cancer or gravity could ever harm?

  • The way I got my husband to see sense is by getting him to read about the Coolidge effect. Without the Coolidge effect, there would be no porn. Porn is about sexual novelty and promiscuous chemicals induced by promiscuous behaviour. Males are rewarded chemically when they engage in promiscuous behaviour, even if the women are virtual. The male brain cannot tell the difference between real and fake imagery. The rewards are the same. Sex for a man starts way before sex for a woman. They become aroused visually, whereas women tend to require a warm up by being mentally and physically stimulated. Just looking at a man will not arouse a woman in the same way that looking at a woman sexually arouses a man. The dopamine that is released in this process is highly addictive. If a woman began having an affair with another man, she would be rewarded with the same promiscuous chemicals that porn induces for a man and would find the affair very hard to stop because of this rush of chemicals when she has sexual relations with her lover. She will come back for more. This is what happens to men watching porn. They get such a promiscuous chemical rush that they come back for more and more and when they combine porn with masturbation, the rush is even greater and more addictive. The way I put it to my husband is… for me to get so highly sexually aroused to the point where I would want a man to penetrate me, I would need to have physical attention from that man. Would you be happy for a man to physically stimulate me this way? If you are, then feel free to keep watching porn. That is how I would get sexual novelty to compensate for the Coolidge effect of sexual monogamy. I said to him that he is getting sexual novelty from porn, so where is my sexual novelty? A sexual relationship whereby one person is getting sexual novelty and the other person is not, is not a sexually monogamous relationship. That is why men will find themselves eventually preferring porn to the real thing because he will start to prefer the chemical rush and novelty of porn. The more and longer he uses it, the more he will consider his real relationship to be boring and less stimulating. That spells trouble for the relationship and that’s why internet porn is wrecking such havoc in relationships today. Men are so sucked in and addicted to the chemical high that they don’t even think rationally about what damage they are doing to themselves and their relationship. It’s taken a long, long time but my husband says he is enlightened and does not look at porn now. He despises it for what it did to him and his relationship. He nearly lost me. Guys, think about how the women in porn get wet and aroused and you will realise that it’s by what the guys say and do to her. Would you like your other half to be stimulated in this way on a regular basis? Would that feel like you are in a fair, equal, monogamous relationship? Porn has become normalised because someone discovered a way to manipulate the male sexual response to the female form and because males are exposed to it in teenage years and become addicted and find it extremely difficult to stop, they just accept it as normal and now it is absolutely everywhere. It’s rife but it’s not natural. It is hyper stimulating, not natural and is a disaster for the future of monogamy. Don’t accept it, it’s a scourge, men, choose love not porn and you will find that several months down the line, you will be so glad you did. You will feel closer to your partner and have higher motivation. If all teenagers were exposed to cocaine in their teenage years and found it difficult to stop, would you want to accept it as normal?

  • I am so glad that you and your husband have come to an understanding on this crucial issue, JosieJump1975. Thank you for sharing this information with all of us.

By Patty Newbold

Patty Newbold

I am a widow who got it right the second time. I have been sharing here since February 14, 2006 what I learned from that experience and from positive psychology, marriage research, and my training as a marriage educator.

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